I don't want to talk about it...

... but I will.

About 2 weeks ago, we got some news about the sale of our house.  Ironically, it was just a day after I posted the homage to our home.  The appraisal was great, the inspection was great, but the buyers were backing out of the sale -- due to a job loss.  My first thought was that it was so sad -- I can't even imagine how stressful that must be for them!  But we found out later that day that they probably have a job already lined up... in Arizona.  So, even in a couple of months, they will definitely not be buying our house. So, I don't have to be sad about leaving our house any more, but now we wish we were.

Honestly, it's been really, really hard for me.  We are basically back to square one -- showing the house.  I really love having it so clean, but the fact that I am on someone else's schedule and can't plan play dates for my kids really bugs.  The thing that stresses me out the most is just being back to not knowing where we'll be in the next few weeks/months.  Maybe here, maybe there -- we just don't know.  The people we hope to buy from are being totally nice about it, and we're still planning on moving within our neighborhood -- but nothing's final until it's final.  We are in such limbo right now, and AUGH!  It's driving me crazy!  I feel like it's all I can think about, and it's discouraging not to be able to just MOVE ON.  Because at this point in time, I would have, literally, moved on, almost.

I think I'm having a hard time accepting God's will in this.  I definitely know His plan is the best one for our family -- I have huge faith that God's plan is always better than what I can think up -- but it's just so hard for me not to know what that plan is.  I guess that's just how life is sometimes. 


*Sorry, I'm closing comments on purpose today -- this is just a journal entry, and I don't need sympathy, I just needed to get this down.  Plus, I feel cheesy about feeling this way, when I have SO MUCH -- a loving husband with a great job, a great family that I get to stay home with, and a beautiful home. It's just something I'm going through. Thanks anyway! :)